Giant bag of douche

Yeah, so basically, I need to stop immediately telling everyone I did terribly on an exam after I take them. Because it seems like I always end up doing really well and just looking like a big prick. Or maybe saying I did badly is good luck and makes me do well in which case I shouldn't stop. Or maybe it's just a defense mechanism to allow myself to always be satisfied with the result, whether it be good or bad.

Anypoop, it's good to see people you don't get to see very often. Some good quality time is always nice. And also, seeing others completely and unutterably inebriated beyond comprehension is nice too.

I hope everyone rocks out on exams and whatnot, and "I just wanna thank my nigger Dallas!"

So many to love, so little time...

So, I hate to sound like a little emo punk, but seriously, how overwhelming. I should definitely be studying right now, but for some reason, when I need to study is when my mind can't stop thinking about other things.

It sucks though. I can't help but think about that fact that there are so many people I love and care so much about that I wish I could talk to and see everyday. But I don't. I can't. Sure, there are people I see all the time - my classmates, the people I live near. It's convenience really, not to say I'm unhappy with spending time with any of those people. But look at all the people I never see that I wish I could. People who live a 5 minute car drive away, I never see. People in Tampa or other towns? Even worse. It just kind of makes me sad.

I think though, the most overwhelming part, is that I just don't have time to spend with all those people. School work and other obligations prevent me from being able to. And really, it only gets worse. In grad school, I'll have even less time I'm sure. Then later, getting married. Married people only have their spouse and maybe a few other friends.

And to think, I'm not even doing half of what I want to do. I don't have a job, I'm not doing research, and I'm barely participating in any clubs at all. How much less time would I have for people if I did all that? Oh well.

I think sometimes thoughts like that just weigh more heavily on me, and I can't figure out a way to put a positive spin on it. If you know how I can possibly look at that dilemma more optimistically, I'd love to hear your opinion. Thanks

Also, I think I'm going to try to post more often in the future.